Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Feeling Better

Well, I think I'm pretty much over my cold and Lysa seems to be feeling much better too, so we'll probably get back to the pool next week. In the meantime, we've been going for walks on the trails by the river, going to the library, drawing pictures, colouring, and practicing in her stander/walker, which we brought home from school for the summer. She's been in it a few times and it's great practice for her to hold her head up, but yesterday I had an epiphany and thought, "Duh! It would probably be easier for her to actually move if she was on a hardwood floor!" We've been doing it on carpeted areas where there's more room, but yesterday we tried it out on the kitchen floor (besides the bathrooms, the only non-carpeted area in the house). At first, she was just moving her left leg, which is her stronger side, and was turning herself in circles (which was fun nonetheless!) but then she got both legs going and was actually pushing herself backwards in the walker! I was cheering, she was laughing and squealing with excitement... but next time, I must be ready with the camera handy! I'm so proud of her!

Oh, and yesterday I saw "Get Smart" with a friend... I love Steve Carrell - he never fails to make me laugh!

Friday, July 25, 2008

Stressed Out, Sick, Now Recovering...

A couple of weeks ago was our church's Daily Vacation Bible School. Last year, I did two days of the kindergarten story time before heading home to NB for my vacation and I swore NEVER AGAIN. This year's coordinator called me up, and I told her I would be happy to volunteer, I just didn't want to be a leader or teacher. A couple minutes later, I hung up the phone, wondering what had just happened and how I had ended up saying yes to doing the kindergarten story-time again... I told Jolie next year, I'm just going to have to not answer the phone!

Thankfully, I was sharing story-telling duties with another lady in our church who also wondered how she had ended up saying yes! It was very much out of both of our comfort zones, which was probably really good for us, but I found it incredibly stressful. (Like couldn't sleep, digestive system screwed up, freaking out stressful.) I found it much more stressful than speaking in front of a group of adults (which is also stressful, don't get me wrong!) - maybe because I feel such a responsibility that the kids both have lots of fun and good memories as well as learning about God and His love for them - and I felt completely inadequate to the task! However, I brought in my buddy "Lester" - an orange, very loud squawky bird of DeeDee's, to help me out, and I think the kids really enjoyed him. I told them about how I had learned about Jesus during Sunday School and Vacation Bible School and that He is the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I hope they can say the same thing someday. They were a great group of kids, quite attentive for a group of twenty-five five-year-olds! And quite funny too. When I asked them what they would buy if they had a million dollars, my favourite answers were, "A van for my mom big enough to hold all the kids here... with a hot tub in the back!" and "Two diamonds THIS big..." (about two feet high). And so I survived, and the kids did too! (And can I just say how wonderful - how encouraging and supportive my co-teacher was? God bless her!)

Fifty-five dollars later, I finally got a swimsuit and took Lysa and Layni to the pool for the first time this summer. Lysa loves the wave pool - totally doesn't mind getting smacked in the face with water, while I'm there freaking out... don't splash in my eyes, not the eyes! Of course, later that week, both Lysa and I came down with a nasty cold. I slept for twelve hours straight one night; I was pretty much a zombie for a couple days. Still a bit of a cough and sniffles, but feeling much better!

Marty and Jolie took Layni and Mattias to Merritt to visit her family for a few days, while Lysa and I stayed home and recovered - and enjoyed the peace and quiet. Well, I did, anyway. I think Lysa enjoys the chaos; it's like comforting background noise to her now! I indulged an urge to bake, making blueberry muffins (didn't turn out as good as my mom's) and chocolate cupcakes with vanilla frosting... from scratch, not a mix, people, from scratch. And now that everybody's back, Jolie and Marty have begged me to never bake again as they inhale the goodies and curse their expanding waist lines, haha!

I'm on my last book in the Anne of Green Gables series, Rilla of Ingleside. Perhaps, I'll re-read my favourite L.M. Montgomery novel, The Blue Castle, next... it is in my opinion, the ultimate romantic fantasy - even if his name is Barney!

The last couple of weeks, I've felt stressed out, sick, sad, and homesick (as it was this time last year I was visiting my family in NB, and I still have two more months to wait this year)... and guilty for struggling with depression when people have so much more to deal with in life than I do. But I'm trying to enjoy the sunshine and good books and loving friends and be grateful for all my blessings, and leave the rest to Jesus.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

32...

... is too young to die. Too young to have fought cancer twice and finally lost. Too young to leave behind a husband of ten years and step-son. Sometimes life seems too hard and too wrong. Tiffany, I'm praying for your boys, that they'll find the strength to keep on breathing and living without you... thank you for all the great high school memories. Thank you for blessing my life with your light. I'm praying you're snug in the arms of Jesus tonight, old friend.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Quick Update

Jolie's mom and stepdad came last week for the football game on Friday night and stayed until this morning. We had lots of fun visiting, working in the garden, playing heated games of Mexican Train (dominoes) and eating way too much good food (including a huge turkey dinner on Sunday).

Lysa and I have been taking our walks around Lafarge Lake in the evenings, when it's cooler. Tonight, we went with a new friend I met through Wednesday night Bible study. We had a good talk and got our exercise!

Still haven't got to Wal-mart to hunt for a bathing suit - MUST do that this weekend, before Lysa goes mad with boredom this summer. Layni volunteered to fix my old one with "sterling silver" bobby pins. She is too funny.

I've been re-reading the Anne of Green Gables series... I'm on #6 of eight. It's fun going back in time... to the early 1900's, but also to my childhood days when I first read them. It's funny how I perceive different things in the books now as opposed to then... relating to the adults in the books, rather than the children, for example.

Tonight, I watched No Country for Old Men with Marty. Like There Will Be Blood, it was beautifully acted and shot, but not quite satisfying for me in the end. After those two movies, I need to see a comedy - immediately!

Okay, going to bed now. It's ridiculous that I'm still up!

Friday, July 04, 2008

Sucker

Usually, I have no problems killing bugs in the house (or bugs out of the house that are on me)... but the other day, I was just about to kill a spider on the kitchen floor when I noticed it only had five legs. I couldn't do it. I couldn't kill a disabled spider! I mean whatever it had been through to lose three legs, it survived and I just couldn't be the one to end his perilous journey through life. So I put him on a piece of paper and deposited him outside to whatever fate may befall him... but at least I gave him a chance.

I'm such a sucker for a sob story, even a spider's.

P.S. When Layni and I told Jolie, she said he was probably some gangsta spider who was amputated in the course of his criminal activities and I should have put him out of his misery. For once in my life, I think someone trumped me on the imagination scale.

Sad...

It breaks my heart when my friends hurt each other, either inadvertently or in striking out from their own hurt... when misunderstandings tear them apart. I wish, I pray for peace and reconciliation. I know there is so much love there - that's why the pain is so deep on all sides. Oh Jesus, please work Your wonders and bring healing and hope again. You know all their hearts, their hurts, their love, their betrayals, their wounds that only You can heal. Oh, Jesus, I lift all these dear ones up to You and ask You to infuse all their lives with Your Holy Spirit of love and wisdom and forgiveness and healing in all their hearts. I do believe that one day, Lord, we will all bow together at Your feet, crying in gratefulness for Your mercy and grace to each one of us... I look forward to that day, Lord... please hasten it. Be glorified, Jesus, and heal all these broken hearts. I love You, Lord, and I am so grateful that with You all things are possible - You see all of us, the good, the bad and the ugly and love us anyway, You accept us as we are, but love us so much that You won't accept us staying that way... knowing You, lovingYou, spending time in Your presence changes us, because of who You are - thank You, Jesus, for Your faithfulness, for Your neverending love... satisfy all our needs and wants, for only You can. Help us to forgive by Your grace, help us to live grateful lives of love because of all You've done for us. Oh Jesus, thank You for the hope I have in You... for the hope we all have in You.

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

It's So Hard to Be...

Layni: "I wish I was handicapped like Lysa, cause she NEVER gets in trouble!!!"

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

Canada Day Excitement... EARLY in the Morning!

First of all, I have to say I am really craving cake tonight. I'm going to have to settle for a chocolate bar instead.

Last night, Layni and I went to see Kung Fu Panda and we both loved it! I love Jack Black... he's just so cute in his enthusiasm (even as an animated panda bear) and I love that he's not your typical leading man and that he's not your typical comedian in that he's pretty clean. Shallow Hal is one of my favourite movies; The Holiday; School of Rock... all excellent.

After getting the kids into bed, the grown-ups watched There Will Be Blood, which Marty has been wanting to see for months. It's a very well-acted and well-shot movie, but I didn't enjoy it. Bizarre is the primary word that comes to mind. Maybe it's because I didn't relate to or care about the people or things in the movie. I'd recommend not wasting your 2 1/2 hours, but Marty and Jolie both seemed to like it. We ended up getting into bed at 2:30 AM (way too late for me!).

Three hours later, we were all awake. Our next-door neighbour woke us up to alert us that our house was about to flood. They already had a foot of water in their basement and their backyard was a lake. The water was flowing past our front door and was creeping up to the house in the backyard. Evidently, thieves had come in the middle of the night and tried to steal (or maybe succeeded, I'm not sure) copper piping from the townhouses being built next to our neighbour's house, and had broken the water main. Finally, after many frantic phone calls on the neighbour's part to the police, fire department, anyone they could think of, someone from the city came and turned off the water... just in time to save our house, THANK GOD!

Afterwards, I was laying in bed, enjoying the early morning sunshine, thanking God that we did not have to deal with the repercussions of a flood, and feeling a little guilty (I must have some Catholic blood in me from somewhere) that we were so blessed but our neighbours weren't. As I prayed for them, I realized that as the Bible says, the rain falls on the just and the unjust, and so do blessings. This was our day for a blessing and I am so grateful. I hope the next time I'm wading through the flood waters, I remember and thank God for all the times I've been spared, and thank Him for all those who were spared, and ask Him for the grace to wade through.

Shopping Frustration

I have been looking for a bathing suit so I can take Lysa to the pool this summer, as she LOVES it there and will happily spend hours in the water. When I went to Tigh-Na-Mara, I realized the elastic in my bathing suit has finally given out - thank goodness there weren't a lot of people around, haha!

I now realize two things in my pursuit of swimwear. Swimsuits are now made solely for people who:

1. Want to wear an itty-bitty string bikini

and

2. Who have big breasts.

I am neither of those people. I just want an affordable swimsuit that fits - is that too much to ask? I find that one-piece swimsuits don't fit me because I don't have the curves to fill them out, especially on top, so I'm looking for a two piece tank top style that is DECENT and I can comfortably wear in public and not have to worry about showing off things I don't want to show off while maneuvering Lysa around. But all I can find anywhere are these ridiculously skimpy bikini tops or one-piece bathing suits that are way too big. The closest I came was a $40 girls' extra, extra large at Sears... but I don't want to pay that much money for a swimsuit that's really too snug... I'm hoping to get to the Lougheed mall soon and have better luck there.

All I want is a bathing suit that fits so I can take Lysa to the pool!!!